And I am not really sure what will come out!
I am a little bit angry right now and I am also very very sad!
I just read on a lady's blog a little bit about a spiritual journey that she is going through. A lady who is battling cancer! The part that makes me angry is a comment that I read telling this woman that she doesn't have to believe in God... just believe in a higher power! Who do you think that power is lady?
It makes me angry because this woman who is at the beginning of a spiritual journey is being told that she doesn't need to believe in God! I pray that she doesn't listen to the 'wisdom' of the lady who left the comment!
The comment itself makes me sad because the lady who left it is obviously not a believer!
There is a God! If you don't know that there is a God then it is because you don't know his son, Jesus!
God sent his son, Jesus, to live on this earth and die for our sins. God is so perfect that He cannot even look at sin. God sent Jesus to die for our sins... to be a living sacrifice for me and for you so that He could see us! We are sinners! We will always be sinners! God sent his perfect son to be the sacrifice offered up on our behalf. If we believe in Jesus and accept His gift of salvation then God can see us through Jesus! Only through Jesus! So if you haven' t accepted Jesus' gift/sacrifice then no... God can not see you and you probably don't know there is a God!
We were created to bring joy and praise to God! Even us Christians think that God created us so He can bring us joy! He created us and He demands our adoration and praise! He deserves it! This life is not about us! None of us! This life is about dying to ourselves and giving our lives to God and doing His will. WHATEVER that means!!
We are so concerned about ourselves and our families and our futures... if we will be able to retire... if we will have enough money to buy that new fancy car or go on that big trip! We just don't get it! IT IS NOT ABOUT US!! It took me having cancer and being afraid that I would die to really get that! I pray that is not what it takes for you. I think it is really easy to say but not really easy to 'get'! We still care way too much about ourselves!
Why am I on a rant about this?
I feel so strongly about all of this because of what I have learned and gone through this past year and a half! God is my joy and my peace! I have been a Christian most of my life but like so many other Christians... I just didn't get it! I still had Kelley as my #1 priority! I still had my family as my #1 or #2 priority (depending on the day)! And I still do sometimes! I will never be perfect at anything!! God protected me and He turned my situation into something that would glorify Him! And you know what... I am happier than I have ever been! It may not appear that way on the outside sometimes ( I am human and not perfect) but I cannot describe the joy that I have in my heart! I have a peace because I have said "yes" to God. I know that He knows what is best and I want what He wants. Even if it means something not so good for me. I know that even then... it will be what is best! And I am okay with that! Because I know that this life is not about me!
I want everyone to feel what I feel! I feel so strongly that unless you feel what I feel... you can't be happy or at peace! I guess I thought I was but I didn't know what true joy and peace were until I died to myself! I LOVE MY FATHER!! He is the perfect Father who knows what is best! There is no greater joy that can be found than in his arms! I want to be right there all the time!
If you haven't accepted Jesus sacrifice then I KNOW that there is something missing in your life! I pray that if this is you and you are reading this that you will reach out to someone (even me) and find Jesus and take His offer!
If you are reading this and you are a Christian but are still too concerned with yourself, your family, money... whatever it is... then I hope that you will pray for God to show you how to put Him first! I hope that you will ask God to help you get where He wants you to be.
I am still praying that myself! The journey has been rough at times but God didn't promise that it would be easy. He did promise to be there with us and He has never let me down! He never will!