Friday, July 30, 2010
Where has time gone?
It has been a while since I have posted! I am not really sure where time has gone. I have been crafting a little bit but I haven't been on the computer very much at all this week. In fact, I was at the LSS the other day and the owner was asking if I had seen one of the new Pink Paislee lines and I had to say No! I have no idea really what all of the new products are that are coming out. I think I am trying to avoid seeing them because I am trying really hard not to spend money! :)
Anyway.... just wanted to hop on and post a card. This is one that I made for a call a while ago.
We have a friend of ours over working on our air conditioner. It is 84 degrees in our house right now! Super stuffy and hot!! Anyway... hopefully that will be fixed in the next few minutes and it will start cooling off.
Also... yesterday we had a storm blow through and it ripped off some of our siding and threw a neighbors trampoline over a line of trees and a fence to sit it down perfectly in the yard next door to them. Crazy! At one point I put Carver in the closet and stayed nearby so I could dive in myself. :)
We took Carver swimming this morning for a couple of hours at another friends house. He loved it! I hate to admit it but this was the first time he has been swimming this year. We don't have our own pool and aren't members anywhere that have a pool. We could take him to the public pool that I grew up going to but Michael and I neither one are thrilled about being in a bathing suit in front of other people. Anyway... we had a great time! We will have to try and take him a few more times before summer is over.
I am awful chatty! I guess I will be quiet now. C is asleep in the bonus room in front of the window unit. If it wasn't so hot in here I might do something but I think I will go lay down and just try to stay as cool as possible! :)
Peace and Love!
Supplies:
Stamps - For the Love of Dots (Practicing Creativity Designs), Essential Messages (Hero Arts)
Paper - Kraft (PTI), Lush Green Houndstooth (My Mind's Eye)
Ink - True Black, Dark Chocolate and Vintage Cream by PTI
Other - PTI felt, Lush Brad (MME), Dahlia Nesties, corner rounder
Sunday, July 25, 2010
I am obssessed with....
using markers on my rubber stamps!
I am a girl who prefers clear stamps... I see myself as rubber challenged. I need to see through the stamp to make sure I am getting everything straight! Of course... I still own a lot of rubber stamps because there are so many great companies that make great rubber stamps!
I have found that recently I am excited about using rubber stamps because I am all about using my Stampin' Up markers to color my stamps instead of using ink pads. Anyway... it is just my newest obsession! Just thought I would share! :)
So... I made the typewriter card for the current Paper Crafts Inspired by Challenge. Since I made it (what I think is) fun and cute... I am entering it into the Moxie Fab Fun and Cute challenge as well.
I made the jar card just for the Moxie Fab Fun and Cute challenge. I was a little paranoid thinking it might not be fun and cute because I didn't use any cute polka dot paper, etc. but... I think the colors are fun and so is that yellow twine (yum)! So... fun and cute it is and I am sticking to it! :)
Hope you are all enjoying your Sunday!
Michael got home yesterday and I am so glad he is home! He preached today in 'big church' and he did a great job! Both of my boys are napping now but I need to go wake them up... it is getting late so...I will shut up now! :)
Peace and Love!
Supplies: You're Just My Type
Stamps - Simply Magical by Unity
Paper - White and Summer Sunrise Bitty Dot by Papertrey
Ink - Tuxedo Black by Tsukineko
Other - Classic Square Nesties, SU Dimensionals, Copic maker, SU Markers, Kaiser rhinestone
Supplies: Wishing you
Stamps - Simply Magical by Unity
Paper - White by Papertrey
Other - SU Markers, Making Memories alpha stickers, Lemon Twine by Whisker Graphics, Doodlebug Jewel, SU corner rounder
Friday, July 23, 2010
Color Play
Happy Friday night! Carver is sleeping and I am planning to do nothing but craft for a little while!
Michael comes home tomorrow and I am very excited!! So is Carver. He has talked about it all day long!
I worked till 2am last night trying to clean up some. Tonight... it is nothing but crafting (and a little laundry)!! Woo Hoo!
Okay... so the cards. These are a few cards that I submitted this last call to Paper Crafts. They were all for the Color Play section of the mag.! None of them were picked and so... here they are!
So I said yesterday that we had someone coming over today. Well... it was an appraiser because we are hoping to refinance our house. It was a lady. She was super nice and we figured out while she was here that she went to school with Michael and my brother, Chris!
Well... she was getting up in our attic and Carver says "Your butt is big!". I covered his mouth and he had said it so low that I was hoping she didn't hear. He ran into the living room and yelled, "Your butt is big!"!! I was horrified and I also wanted to bust a gut laughing! That boy... I swear! He is a mess!
He had said that to me earlier this week. He said he heard it on TV! Anyway... I think she took it okay but... we may get a really low appraisal now! :) We had a discussion about how it was rude, etc. Hopefully that will be the last time I hear that from his mouth but I am afraid that it won't be!
Well... I am going to go craft now!
Peace and Love!
Supplies: Butterfly Hello
Stamps - Butterfly Effect by Unity, Essential Messages by Hero Arts
Paper - Lemon Tart, Sweet Blush, Spring Moss and Melon Berry by Papertrey
Ink - Melon Berry by Papertrey, Tuxedo Black by Tsukineko
Other - Stickles by Ranger, SU corner rounder, Doodlebug Jewel
Supplies: Buttons Hello
Stamps - Essential Messages by Hero Arts
Paper - Sweet Blush by Papertrey
Ink- Versamark by Tsukineko
Other - White emboss powder by Superior, SU Corner rounder, Papertrey buttons
Supplies: Happy Bday
Stamps - Essential Messages from Hero Arts
Paper - Sweet Blush, Lemon Tart, and Spring Moss by Papertrey
Ink- VersaMark by Tsukineko
Other- Melon Berry button and ribbon by Papertrey, SU Dimensionals, Twine by Papertrey, White emboss powder by Superior, Harlequin Emboss Plate by SU
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Celebrate
I thought I would take a break from cleaning up my house to post real quick!
We are having someone come by in the morning and I would be embarrassed for them to see how dirty my house is. I am working on getting at least one layer of dirt off! :)
Anyway... this is a card that I made a while back. I really like this card!
Carver has been doing well today. He has been walking and running and jumping all day! He is still not tip top but I pray he will continue to get better everyday! Thank you all for the prayers and well wishes! :)
I am excited because my hubby comes home soon! I can't wait! We have missed him! Carver is going to be so happy to have his daddy home!
Okay... well... time to get back after it before I get too lazy!
Peace and Love!
Supplies:
Stamps - Gown by A Muse, Very Vintage Labels 4 by Waltzing Mouse, Everyday Words by Ali Edwards from Technique Tuesday
Paper - Lemon Tart, White, Soft Stone by Papertrey, Basic Gray by SU
Ink - True Black by Papertrey, Basic Gray by SU
Other - Kaiser pearl, Labels Nesties 4, SU corner rounder and dimensionals, Stickles and glossy accents by Ranger
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Happily Ever After
Happy Wednesday! It has been an interesting one so far... more on that in a few!
So... this is a card that I made for a submission a while back. I wish I had added some stickles to the dress because I love stickles. I might still but I was too lazy to do it and then take another picture! :)
So... I said Carver had been running a fever. He has been fever free for 24 hours. However... this morning he would not stand or walk ... saying that his legs hurt. I freaked out. I called the doc... no appt. until 2pm. They called right back and said someone had just cancelled (God is always looking out for me and understands how impatient I am) and so we went at 10.
Of course I heard some of the bad things that it could be but our doc was going to check him for strep even though his fever was gone and his throat looked fine. The strep test came back positive!
So... that is the first time (and hopefully only time) that I have been thrilled with a strep diagnosis!
C is napping now and I just wanted to post real quick. Please pray for my precious little boy that this is caused by strep and that he will feel better soon! Thank you!!
Peace and Love!
Supplies:
Stamps - Happily Ever After and Wedding Couple from A Muse
Paper - White by Papertrey
Ink - True Black by Papertrey, Reflection Blue by Superior
Other - Lily White jewel from Doodlebug, SU corner rounder, Copic R29, Glossy accents by Ranger, May Arts Wrinkled ribbon
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Off Day
Today was not an 'off' day. I have not crafted yet so... I don't really know if it is or not. However... when I made these... it was definitely an off day! Not my fav work ever but there were just too many of them to put away without posting. I thought I would just group them all together! The thank you one is not horrible but it looks a little off as far as placement!
I don't think that I will even post supplies for all of these. :)
Just wanted to post real quick!
Michael has been in Peru since Saturday. Carver and I have mostly been home. He has been running a fever since Sunday afternoon. I only had to give him medicine once this morning so I hope that he is over whatever it is!
Anyway... we are having a good week. We are doing really well this trip. I am not sure if he is acting different (not as much of a terror) because he is coming out of his three stage (please Lord let this be the one) or if it is because he hasn't felt well! :) I am trying to act better myself so... things have been good. Other than the fever thing of course.
Carver has been so sweet the past few days and his new thing is (he got this from me) is to tell me that he loves me more than anything in the world. Of course when he says it... he says, "momma... I love you more than anyting in the wold"!! So cute! He has been so loving and I am loving it!
Okay.. enough rambling!
Peace and Love!
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Moxie Fab - Finding Inspiration In a Layout Challenge
This is my entry for the latest Moxie Fab challenge! You can view the details of the challenge here.
I found my inspiration in the colors used on the layout and also I loved the different strips of paper and how they were used.
Oh.. and I loved the stitching!
In the last few months, I purchased a little better sewing machine. However... I have not gotten it out and set it up yet. I was running out of time to participate so I did some faux stitching with my Sassafras stamps! Turned out about how my real stitching looks... a little off but hey... it is handmade, right? :)
This card was definitely out of my comfort zone... using lots of patterned paper and almost no stamping. But... I am pretty happy with how it turned out!
Maybe if I can take the time to set up my sewing machine I might find that I can use more paper on my projects. I have all sorts of ideas running around in my head using stitching! Well... 2 or 3 maybe! :)
BTW... the base of the card is actually white... it looks a little pink to me in the picture! Like I said... running out of time to participate. I took this pic about 7pm tonight. I don't like to wait till the last day so I wanted to get it posted tonight!
Hope you have a great Sunday night/Monday!
Peace and Love!
Supplies:
Stamps - Stitchery by Sassafras
Paper - White by Papertrey, Fresh Print Clothesline collection from Little Yellow Bicycle
Ink - Tuxedo Black by Tsukineko, Vintage Photo Distress by Ranger
Other - Prima pearls, Orange Divine Twine by Whisker Graphics, SU Dimensionals, SU Beautiful Butterflies Die, FP Clothesline Sticker
Friday, July 16, 2010
Happy Birthday
I am about to leave to go pick up Carver from church! I am sad that camp is over! :) Not just for me but for him. He has had a great time this week. I have enjoyed some time at home to get a few things done. Of course I didn't get as much done as I would like but... that is okay. I have missed him so it will be nice to get back to our 'normal' routine. One of these days I will figure out how to get things done with him home! :)
Anyway... just wanted to post a card real quick.
Peace and Love!
Supplies:
Stamps - Antique Engravings by Hero Arts, Handwritten Notes by Papertrey
Paper - Aqua Mist, Lemon Tart and White by Papertrey
Ink - Vintage Photo Distress by Ranger
Other - SU corner rounder and dimensionals, Prima Flower, May Arts ribbon, SU Modern label punch.
Thursday, July 15, 2010
You Make Me Smile
Michael asked me earlier this week to make him 5 kind of Thank you cards to give out to his team at church. They have worked hard for the camp that has been going on this week.
Carver has gotten to go to camp each day this week and he has had a blast. He loved camp last year and he loved it this year. Anyway....
I waited until tonight to make them and he needs them tomorrow so please excuse the photography.
I made all 5 cards in about 10 minutes. I used some pre folded cards/envelopes. They are white in case you can't tell. I used the stamp from Inkadinkado and my SU markers - Real Red, Tempting Turquoise and Pumpkin Pie.
Nothing fancy. Quick and easy! Male or female.
I thought the sentiment was perfect since the camp was for younger kids/preschool kids.
Okay... well... lots to do. Just wanted to post real quick. I got a little more cleaning done today. Carver's room and bathroom are now clean... yippee! Hoping to get a little more done tomorrow but camp is only until noon tomorrow. Tomorrow is water day! :) Carver should have a blast!
Peace and Love!
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
My Craft Room
Is clean... Woo Hoo!
Thought I would share some pics! If you want to check out the before pics... go here.
This was my 2nd sweep of cleaning out/organizing. I realized that I was dreading doing the actual cleaning in this room because I had so much stuff sitting around. Yesterday I worked to get some things that I don't actually use... out of site. I want to keep them but I managed to take some other stuff out of my closet to make room for craft stuff.
Still looks a little cluttered for my taste but... there is only so much room in here. I have plans to do other things in here but that will be a while. Money is needed elsewhere right now! :) Like... to eat and pay bills!
Anyway... today I worked from about 10am until 2:30pm just cleaning this room. Anything you see in these pics... was washed/dusted/wiped down.
I think I want to sleep in here tonight! After all... it is the only clean room in my house! :)
Okay... on to the pics...
I moved an extra piece of furniture (a nightstand) out from in front of the double window. It really looks a lot better. Now we just have to get it up into the attic until we get new bedroom furniture.
This is where I store my Unity and SU stamps. I have all of my Unity stamp sets in those buckets with the blue. On the 3rd shelf is my SU sets. On the bottom is my card collection and my Big shot. I have other things in there too but ... that is what takes up most of the room.
Speaking of card collection.... I had a whole tub of handmade cards that was sitting under my desk. I went through them yesterday and have a bag full to give away to my family/friends. I am super proud to only have this many. I really want to do better about actually using them or giving them to someone who will. I don't ever want to have more than what will fit in that basket. I do have one container of holiday cards that is stored in my closet... it is a small container.
I took this shot so you can see my chalkboard labels on my ribbon jars. Love Love Love these! I got them from Stampin' Up! and I need to order another set so I can finish the other two jars. You can also see my fav twine... Divine Twine by Whisker Graphics.
The Lance snack holder is holding my dies, etc that I use with my big shot. It is also holding my PTI felt.
This file cabinet holds all of my 8.5 x 11 paper and some other things. I have random paper/chipboard stored in the plastic bins. My flowers are in the basket. My May Arts ribbon is stacked on the shelf.
Well... this is just a corner beside my desk. It houses my printer and you can see my basket (formerly... bucket) of cards that I need to post, etc. On the wall in the CD cases are all of my clear stamps.
This is my desk (duh... ha) and you can see my two baskets of paper, etc. I got the idea to group paper and embellishments from a certain line in a big plastic bag and store it in a basket from Latisha Yoast. She had it on her blog some time ago and I am not going to take the time to search for the actual post but you can visit her blog here. One day I hope to have one basket instead of two. I really need to start scrapbooking and see if I can get rid of some of this paper! :)
I have two of those 3 drawer wire cabinet thingys... the one you see clearly holds my rhinestones/pearls at the top, tools in the middle, and random wood stamps on the bottom. There is another one right beside the filing cabinet and it holds all of my ink pads.
This is another piece of furniture that is suppose to be in my bedroom. However... my bedroom is not big enough for all the furniture we have. This bedroom furniture has seen its better days and those were probably before I was even born. I love this furniture though. I loved it from the moment I saw it... well... this piece and the bed anyway.
Okay... rambling.
I have my stamp indexes and other stuff stored in here. I have a lot of stuff in this thing. One day I hope to get rid of this furniture and have the handy hubby build me some shelves in this corner. Until then... this will do just fine! :)
I am showing this picture because that tan bag that says Crest (we have a dentist in the family) is full of cards to give away... woo hoo! I even threw some that were really bad in the recycle bin! Go me!
If I were really feeling brave I would have taken a shot with the closet doors open! :) However... everything might have spilled out if I opened those doors!
Last picture... woo hoo!
This is how I store my punches and paints!
Well... that's it! Thanks for taking time to look around my craft room!
Peace and Love! :)
Thought I would share some pics! If you want to check out the before pics... go here.
This was my 2nd sweep of cleaning out/organizing. I realized that I was dreading doing the actual cleaning in this room because I had so much stuff sitting around. Yesterday I worked to get some things that I don't actually use... out of site. I want to keep them but I managed to take some other stuff out of my closet to make room for craft stuff.
Still looks a little cluttered for my taste but... there is only so much room in here. I have plans to do other things in here but that will be a while. Money is needed elsewhere right now! :) Like... to eat and pay bills!
Anyway... today I worked from about 10am until 2:30pm just cleaning this room. Anything you see in these pics... was washed/dusted/wiped down.
I think I want to sleep in here tonight! After all... it is the only clean room in my house! :)
Okay... on to the pics...
I moved an extra piece of furniture (a nightstand) out from in front of the double window. It really looks a lot better. Now we just have to get it up into the attic until we get new bedroom furniture.
This is where I store my Unity and SU stamps. I have all of my Unity stamp sets in those buckets with the blue. On the 3rd shelf is my SU sets. On the bottom is my card collection and my Big shot. I have other things in there too but ... that is what takes up most of the room.
Speaking of card collection.... I had a whole tub of handmade cards that was sitting under my desk. I went through them yesterday and have a bag full to give away to my family/friends. I am super proud to only have this many. I really want to do better about actually using them or giving them to someone who will. I don't ever want to have more than what will fit in that basket. I do have one container of holiday cards that is stored in my closet... it is a small container.
I took this shot so you can see my chalkboard labels on my ribbon jars. Love Love Love these! I got them from Stampin' Up! and I need to order another set so I can finish the other two jars. You can also see my fav twine... Divine Twine by Whisker Graphics.
The Lance snack holder is holding my dies, etc that I use with my big shot. It is also holding my PTI felt.
This file cabinet holds all of my 8.5 x 11 paper and some other things. I have random paper/chipboard stored in the plastic bins. My flowers are in the basket. My May Arts ribbon is stacked on the shelf.
Well... this is just a corner beside my desk. It houses my printer and you can see my basket (formerly... bucket) of cards that I need to post, etc. On the wall in the CD cases are all of my clear stamps.
This is my desk (duh... ha) and you can see my two baskets of paper, etc. I got the idea to group paper and embellishments from a certain line in a big plastic bag and store it in a basket from Latisha Yoast. She had it on her blog some time ago and I am not going to take the time to search for the actual post but you can visit her blog here. One day I hope to have one basket instead of two. I really need to start scrapbooking and see if I can get rid of some of this paper! :)
I have two of those 3 drawer wire cabinet thingys... the one you see clearly holds my rhinestones/pearls at the top, tools in the middle, and random wood stamps on the bottom. There is another one right beside the filing cabinet and it holds all of my ink pads.
This is another piece of furniture that is suppose to be in my bedroom. However... my bedroom is not big enough for all the furniture we have. This bedroom furniture has seen its better days and those were probably before I was even born. I love this furniture though. I loved it from the moment I saw it... well... this piece and the bed anyway.
Okay... rambling.
I have my stamp indexes and other stuff stored in here. I have a lot of stuff in this thing. One day I hope to get rid of this furniture and have the handy hubby build me some shelves in this corner. Until then... this will do just fine! :)
I am showing this picture because that tan bag that says Crest (we have a dentist in the family) is full of cards to give away... woo hoo! I even threw some that were really bad in the recycle bin! Go me!
If I were really feeling brave I would have taken a shot with the closet doors open! :) However... everything might have spilled out if I opened those doors!
Last picture... woo hoo!
This is how I store my punches and paints!
Well... that's it! Thanks for taking time to look around my craft room!
Peace and Love! :)
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
No Sentiment Cards
Happy Tuesday!
Carver is at camp (at church) for the second day this week! I was able to get a few things done yesterday and I am getting ready to clean my craft room. But... before I do... I wanted to throw up a post. Feels like forever since I have posted, etc!
I am hoping that a clean craft room will help my mojo and my lack of enthusiasm. :)
These are two cards that I made for the last PC call.
Peace and Love!
Supplies: orange and gray
Paper - Orange Zest and White by Papertrey
Other - My Minds Eye Rhinestones, SU Basic Gray ribbon, Cuttlebug emboss folder
Supplies: sewing machine
Paper - White
Other - Hambly rub on, PTI buttons, SU corner rounder
Friday, July 9, 2010
Hey
Happy Friday morning! Just so you know.... I posted another late night rambling post below this one. It was about 1am when I finished it up! :) So... if you want to read it... scroll on down. If not... I am posting a card on top.
We are heading to the zoo again today... this time Daddy is coming with us and we have purchased a brand new stroller! So... hopefully we will cover more ground today! It is not suppose to be as hot but we may get rained on!
Well... I need to go pack some lunch and get ready to go! I am just always paranoid when I type up those rambling posts... it is scary to kind of ramble on for the world to see! :) So again... wanted to leave a new card on here to!
Peace and Love!
Supplies:
Stamps - Vintage Truck by A Muse
Paper - Kraft by Papertrey
Ink - True black by Papertrey, Distress by Ranger
Other - Button and Twine by Papertrey, Stickers by October Afternoon, Copic Markers
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Thoughts on Life
Well... it is rambling post time! :)
I was typing an email to a dear friend and it hit me... that urge to share my feelings with everyone who will read it! :)
What I typed in that email that got me 'started' was... that this year has been the most liberating year of my life!
This year has, in some ways, been the worst year of my life! In other ways... it has been the most liberating and wonderful year of my life!
I have learned this year that I can choose to see the positive in a very bad circumstance!
I wanted to have more than one child!
When I found out that I couldn't have anymore children... it was devastating! Honestly... more than anything... I just wanted to stay alive to raise the one son I was blessed to have! However... there was a part of me that was grieving over not being able to give Carver a brother or sister. Grieving over not being able to give my husband another child. Grieving over not being able to carry another child in my womb and experience that wonderful ... wonderful miracle again! Just grieving over the fact that my idea of what our life would be like... was suddenly changed and not in a good way!
Now... I grieved for a little bit. I still grieve from time to time. I imagine there will be times that I grieve over it for the rest of my life!
I have chosen to be happy! God has blessed me with a beautiful son! God has helped me to focus on the positive of only having one child. Something that I was so against before. I was adamant that I didn't want to have an only child. I had two brothers and I wanted Carver to have the sibling experience!
I feel like I can finally plan the rest of our lives in a way! I felt like I was in limbo for so many years not knowing if I would be able to have another child. Not knowing when I would be able to have another child. I couldn't get rid of this or that because I may need it again one day if we had another child! There were just so many decisions that I felt I couldn't make because I was unsure about what the future held as far as more children.
I feel liberated because now... I know! I know we are a family of 3! I am happy with my family of 3! I am okay with the thought that probably one child is all that I could handle... mentally and physically. Michael goes on week long trips a lot and sometimes he works long hours. Michael works extra jobs to make money so that I can stay home. I don't know that I could handle being a mommy of 2 or 3! I think one perfect little boy is perfect for me!
My husbands job is important! The most important job in the world! It is more important for him to help grow God's kingdom than it is for us to have a house full of our own children!
I struggled for a long time with raising my hands in corporate worship! I wanted to raise my hands but I was always worried about who was watching or what someone would think. Not any more!! I now raise both my hands in worship! I feel liberated! I am free from worrying about me! I raise my hands in worship because He deserves it! I raise my hands in worship even if I am not 'feeling it" because He demands it. He deserves it! It is about Him... not about me!
I am free from putting my family first! I always struggled with putting my family (meaning all... parents, brothers, etc) above all else! I still love my family obviously! I feel liberated and free from feeling bad about not being so 'into' my family! This world is not about me. This world is not about my family! Not even my husband and son family! I am no longer controlled by the pressure of family! God has released me from those chains!
I love my son! I love my son more than life itself!
I know that his purpose on this earth is to love and worship God! As is mine... as is yours!
Carver is going to grow up soon and he is going to spend more time as an adult (I pray) than he is going to spend as a child! My job as his mother is to teach him about Jesus... teach him to love Jesus.. teach him to seek Jesus everyday! I have to help teach him to be a man of God and to put Him first... above me... above his daddy... above his spouse... and above his children!
I realize that one day Carver is going to leave my home. I realize that as he gets older.... our relationship will change. He will not need me like he needs me now.
I have a very short time frame to teach him about what is important in life.
I found myself last night trying to explain to a 3 year old how a woman chose to take her own life!
Carver overheard a conversation and that boy is just plain smart!
So many parents want to shelter their children from anything bad for as long as they can!
I don't want to scar him and I don't want to tell him things that he isn't ready to hear. I try to be careful about details.
However... I don't want to lie to him and I don't want him growing up thinking this world is about him and everything is great!
I want him to understand that this world is bad BUT... with Jesus... that is how we have joy and peace and love. That is the ONLY way! Life is hard! I don't want him to have to learn that one day after he has spent 15 years being sheltered from all the bad things!
It is hard to think about Carver growing up and leaving our home. I find myself trying to think positively (already) about that time when we will have an empty nest.
I have just found myself this past 7 or 8 months... seeing the positive in the harder things in life that we have to deal with!
I feel like I am well on the way on my journey of giving up on the idea of me and that anything is about me!
I have prayed for years to truly love God and Jesus and to put them first... above all else! I think it is sad that I have had to pray that but honestly.... I had to! I need to see things and feel things to make it real. Although I believe God and Jesus are real... being that I didn't live in Bible times and I can't physically see them... it has always been hard for me to really 'get it'! I am not sure that I even 'get it' now but I 'get it' better than I have ever gotten it! I have experienced first hand God's loving hands carrying me when I didn't have the strength to walk on my own! There are no words to describe how special that is and how appreciative I am to my Daddy who loves me more than I could ever ever ever imagine or deserve!
I am so happy!
Not all the time am I happy... I still have my moments and issues that I deal with!
But... when I take a minute to just sit still and reflect on Jesus and everything He has done for me... I am so happy! I am happier than I have ever been and I am so thankful for all of the lessons that I have learned and for all of the lessons that I have yet to learn ... but will!
Wow... I am really rambling! I am not sure that any of this makes sense! I think it is time for bed! :)
I think one of the things that sparked this rambling post is that I had a family friend (from long ago) that committed suicide this week! It was the mother of one of my childhood friends. We went to church together when I was young. I spent as much time at her house as I did mine for several years! I am not sure how she got to the point of thinking life wasn't worth living anymore!
I know that life is hard... life stinks! Life wasn't meant to be easy! I don't know how anyone who doesn't have a real relationship with Jesus can truly be happy! Jesus gives me peace and joy that I cannot explain! If you don't know what it is like to have that peace and joy in your life... I pray that you reach out to someone who can help you to get it!
I was typing an email to a dear friend and it hit me... that urge to share my feelings with everyone who will read it! :)
What I typed in that email that got me 'started' was... that this year has been the most liberating year of my life!
This year has, in some ways, been the worst year of my life! In other ways... it has been the most liberating and wonderful year of my life!
I have learned this year that I can choose to see the positive in a very bad circumstance!
I wanted to have more than one child!
When I found out that I couldn't have anymore children... it was devastating! Honestly... more than anything... I just wanted to stay alive to raise the one son I was blessed to have! However... there was a part of me that was grieving over not being able to give Carver a brother or sister. Grieving over not being able to give my husband another child. Grieving over not being able to carry another child in my womb and experience that wonderful ... wonderful miracle again! Just grieving over the fact that my idea of what our life would be like... was suddenly changed and not in a good way!
Now... I grieved for a little bit. I still grieve from time to time. I imagine there will be times that I grieve over it for the rest of my life!
I have chosen to be happy! God has blessed me with a beautiful son! God has helped me to focus on the positive of only having one child. Something that I was so against before. I was adamant that I didn't want to have an only child. I had two brothers and I wanted Carver to have the sibling experience!
I feel like I can finally plan the rest of our lives in a way! I felt like I was in limbo for so many years not knowing if I would be able to have another child. Not knowing when I would be able to have another child. I couldn't get rid of this or that because I may need it again one day if we had another child! There were just so many decisions that I felt I couldn't make because I was unsure about what the future held as far as more children.
I feel liberated because now... I know! I know we are a family of 3! I am happy with my family of 3! I am okay with the thought that probably one child is all that I could handle... mentally and physically. Michael goes on week long trips a lot and sometimes he works long hours. Michael works extra jobs to make money so that I can stay home. I don't know that I could handle being a mommy of 2 or 3! I think one perfect little boy is perfect for me!
My husbands job is important! The most important job in the world! It is more important for him to help grow God's kingdom than it is for us to have a house full of our own children!
I struggled for a long time with raising my hands in corporate worship! I wanted to raise my hands but I was always worried about who was watching or what someone would think. Not any more!! I now raise both my hands in worship! I feel liberated! I am free from worrying about me! I raise my hands in worship because He deserves it! I raise my hands in worship even if I am not 'feeling it" because He demands it. He deserves it! It is about Him... not about me!
I am free from putting my family first! I always struggled with putting my family (meaning all... parents, brothers, etc) above all else! I still love my family obviously! I feel liberated and free from feeling bad about not being so 'into' my family! This world is not about me. This world is not about my family! Not even my husband and son family! I am no longer controlled by the pressure of family! God has released me from those chains!
I love my son! I love my son more than life itself!
I know that his purpose on this earth is to love and worship God! As is mine... as is yours!
Carver is going to grow up soon and he is going to spend more time as an adult (I pray) than he is going to spend as a child! My job as his mother is to teach him about Jesus... teach him to love Jesus.. teach him to seek Jesus everyday! I have to help teach him to be a man of God and to put Him first... above me... above his daddy... above his spouse... and above his children!
I realize that one day Carver is going to leave my home. I realize that as he gets older.... our relationship will change. He will not need me like he needs me now.
I have a very short time frame to teach him about what is important in life.
I found myself last night trying to explain to a 3 year old how a woman chose to take her own life!
Carver overheard a conversation and that boy is just plain smart!
So many parents want to shelter their children from anything bad for as long as they can!
I don't want to scar him and I don't want to tell him things that he isn't ready to hear. I try to be careful about details.
However... I don't want to lie to him and I don't want him growing up thinking this world is about him and everything is great!
I want him to understand that this world is bad BUT... with Jesus... that is how we have joy and peace and love. That is the ONLY way! Life is hard! I don't want him to have to learn that one day after he has spent 15 years being sheltered from all the bad things!
It is hard to think about Carver growing up and leaving our home. I find myself trying to think positively (already) about that time when we will have an empty nest.
I have just found myself this past 7 or 8 months... seeing the positive in the harder things in life that we have to deal with!
I feel like I am well on the way on my journey of giving up on the idea of me and that anything is about me!
I have prayed for years to truly love God and Jesus and to put them first... above all else! I think it is sad that I have had to pray that but honestly.... I had to! I need to see things and feel things to make it real. Although I believe God and Jesus are real... being that I didn't live in Bible times and I can't physically see them... it has always been hard for me to really 'get it'! I am not sure that I even 'get it' now but I 'get it' better than I have ever gotten it! I have experienced first hand God's loving hands carrying me when I didn't have the strength to walk on my own! There are no words to describe how special that is and how appreciative I am to my Daddy who loves me more than I could ever ever ever imagine or deserve!
I am so happy!
Not all the time am I happy... I still have my moments and issues that I deal with!
But... when I take a minute to just sit still and reflect on Jesus and everything He has done for me... I am so happy! I am happier than I have ever been and I am so thankful for all of the lessons that I have learned and for all of the lessons that I have yet to learn ... but will!
Wow... I am really rambling! I am not sure that any of this makes sense! I think it is time for bed! :)
I think one of the things that sparked this rambling post is that I had a family friend (from long ago) that committed suicide this week! It was the mother of one of my childhood friends. We went to church together when I was young. I spent as much time at her house as I did mine for several years! I am not sure how she got to the point of thinking life wasn't worth living anymore!
I know that life is hard... life stinks! Life wasn't meant to be easy! I don't know how anyone who doesn't have a real relationship with Jesus can truly be happy! Jesus gives me peace and joy that I cannot explain! If you don't know what it is like to have that peace and joy in your life... I pray that you reach out to someone who can help you to get it!
Quilt Ministry Cards
Happy Thursday! I wanted to show a couple more cards that I made for the Quilt Ministry at church. I made several of each!
Carver and I just got in from the zoo a little while ago. We made a stop by Michael's on the way home. I haven't been there in a very long time!
The zoo was fun and very hot! Carver is zonked out and I think I may go take a little nap myself!
Peace and Love!
Supplies: combined
Stamps - Inspired Verse by Stampendous, Gem Stone Insects by Inkadinkado
Paper - White by Papertrey
Ink - True Black by Papertrey, Bahama Blue and Pear Tart by Tsukineko
Other - SU Corner rounder, Kaiser rhinestones, Copic markers, Glossy accents by Ranger
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Peace and Smile
Happy Wednesday morning!
Carver is at my parents house... he spent the night with them last night! I thought I would post real quick before I go to get him! I was up until 3am trying to get some stuff done... piles cleaned up, etc! I still have lingering projects here and there. A few of them are now either done or almost done... woo hoo! Anyway...
These are two cards that I made for submissions. Obviously they were not accepted and you can probably see why! :) They are kind of fun but not my favorite cards. I was not using my strongest skills. There is no stamping... just patterned paper and stickers! I stink at using patterned paper and stickers!
Okay... well... hope you all have a great day! Making a run to the consignment store to drop off another load of Carver stuff. I have been very pleased with Carvers 'earnings' from going the consignment store route! There are pros and cons for any way that I could think of to get rid of his baby stuff! I think this was definitely the best way for me! :)
Peace and Love!
Supplies: combined
Paper - Free Spirit collection by Little Yellow Bicycle
Ohter- Free Spirit Chipboard and Canvas Word stickers, Doodlebug Jewel, Orange and Lemon Divine Twine by Whisker Graphics, SU corner rounder
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Happy Birthday
Happy Tuesday! Today I am posting a couple of bday cards that I made recently... a boy bday card and a girl bday card! I was trying to use up some of my patterned paper. Of course I didn't make a dent in it but... hey... I tried!
We have had a busy long weekend... a great one but... wow... it has been busy! Today I am tuckered out but I am trying to get lots done! Carver goes to camp at church next week ... everyday! I am going to try and finish some projects around here so next week I will have a week to just clean my house from top to bottom. That will be nice!! :) I am looking forward to it and praying that Carver stays well so everything will go as planned!
Okay... well... I was trying to type this up while C was finishing up his lunch! He is done... now it is time for nap!
Hope you all have a great day!
Peace and Love!
Supplies: girl
Stamps - Essential Messages from Hero Arts
Paper- White by PTI, Paper Doll collection from Crate Paper
Ink - True Black by PTI, Distress by Ranger
Other - SU corner rounder and dimensionals, Doodlebug Jewel, Square punch by EK Success
Supplies: boy
Stamps - Essential Messages from Hero Artsj
Paper - Kraft by PTI, Abbey Road collection from My Mind's Eye
Ink - True Black by PTI, Distress by Ranger
Other - SU corner rounder and dimensionals, Square punch by EK Success, Chipboard by My Mind's Eye Abbey Road collection
Friday, July 2, 2010
Picnic at the Lake
Kind of at the last minute this afternoon... I asked the boys if they wanted to go have a picnic. They said yes so I packed a few sandwiches, etc.. and we headed out. We had a great time! Something different and definitely something we will do again and hopefully again! :)
Lots of pics that I want to post... if you are looking for cards.... go to the next post in line!! :)
Carver did really well. Last time we were at the beach... he was not a fan of the sand and the water. Michael and I were both really surprised that he liked the sand and he LOVED the water! Carver didn't want to get out! Next time we will come prepared with bathing suits, etc! :)
Lots of pics that I want to post... if you are looking for cards.... go to the next post in line!! :)
Carver did really well. Last time we were at the beach... he was not a fan of the sand and the water. Michael and I were both really surprised that he liked the sand and he LOVED the water! Carver didn't want to get out! Next time we will come prepared with bathing suits, etc! :)
The Setup... :)
I have started keeping this quilt in our truck. I have a big black zippered bag that I keep stocked with things like this quilt, plates and napkins, extra clothes for Carver, etc etc. Just in case you wanted to know! :)
I have started keeping this quilt in our truck. I have a big black zippered bag that I keep stocked with things like this quilt, plates and napkins, extra clothes for Carver, etc etc. Just in case you wanted to know! :)
Feeding the geese (I guess that is what they are). They were scary... they even hiss... never knew that!
Didn't take him long to start splashing!
I took this pic with my head turned... got lucky and think I got a pretty good shot!
I took this pic with my head turned... got lucky and think I got a pretty good shot!
June CARDS Pub
Happy Friday!
This is a card that CARDS published in their June issue! Woo Hoo!
Perfect card to post before the weekend!
Hope you all have a wonderful 4th of July!
Carver and I went to Pump It Up and to Chick-fil-A with my childhood friend and his beautiful wife and their gorgeous twin girls! They are visiting from New York! Michael missed out on the fun in order to work on some home/banking stuff. Rates are so low right now... great time to refinance... just sayin!
So... we have lots of plans over the next few days! Looking forward to the food, fun and fireworks!
Peace and Love!!
Supplies:
Stamps - Papertrey Ink and Technique Tuesday
Paper - Kraft by Papertrey Ink
Ink - all Papertrey Ink
Other - SU Corner rounder, Papertrey Ink twine, Kaiser rhinestones
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Thursday Post
Happy Thursday!
Carver and I went to feed the ducks at the dam this morning! This was our first time doing this but we will definitely do it again. Probably every time our bread 'goes bad' we will take a trip to feed the ducks! Here are a couple of pics...
These are some cards that I have been working on for the quilt ministry at church. I made several of both and am working on more so I can try and get a pretty big stash for them. I don't want them to run out of cards and have to ask for more... not when I love making cards! That would be a shame! :)
Hope you all have a great day!
Peace and Love!
Supplies: Just for you
Stamps - All about you by Papertrey
Paper - White by Papertrey
Ink- True Black , New Leaf, Summer Sunrise, Orange Zest and Terracotta Tile by Papertrey, Dandelion by Tsukineko
Other - SU corner rounder and dimensionals, Star Dust stickles, circle punch and Kaiser rhinestones
Supplies: Welcome Little One
Stamps - Moon Beams and Heart Strings from Ippity by Unity
Paper - White by Papertrey
Ink - True black by Papetrey, Real Red by SU
Other - Glossy Accents and Star Dust stickles, SU Corner rounder, Kaiser rhinestones, copics
Carver and I went to feed the ducks at the dam this morning! This was our first time doing this but we will definitely do it again. Probably every time our bread 'goes bad' we will take a trip to feed the ducks! Here are a couple of pics...
These are some cards that I have been working on for the quilt ministry at church. I made several of both and am working on more so I can try and get a pretty big stash for them. I don't want them to run out of cards and have to ask for more... not when I love making cards! That would be a shame! :)
Hope you all have a great day!
Peace and Love!
Supplies: Just for you
Stamps - All about you by Papertrey
Paper - White by Papertrey
Ink- True Black , New Leaf, Summer Sunrise, Orange Zest and Terracotta Tile by Papertrey, Dandelion by Tsukineko
Other - SU corner rounder and dimensionals, Star Dust stickles, circle punch and Kaiser rhinestones
Supplies: Welcome Little One
Stamps - Moon Beams and Heart Strings from Ippity by Unity
Paper - White by Papertrey
Ink - True black by Papetrey, Real Red by SU
Other - Glossy Accents and Star Dust stickles, SU Corner rounder, Kaiser rhinestones, copics