I find myself today, of course, being thankful for all of the blessings in my life! The 'normal' blessings that we are all thankful for. I also find myself being thankful to God for what He is doing in my life at this moment. I find myself praising Him in this storm because I know that He is going to see my through this. I know that God is going to use this in a mighty way to change my life forever and I know that He is going to use this to do a work in many lives around me. I know that through this, I will have a strength and a faith and an understanding of so many things that I have prayed to Him to have. I found myself at one of my lowest points thinking that THIS is what Jesus felt before He died on the cross for me. I have always had a hard time grasping the sacrifice that Jesus made. I wasn't there to see what he went through. I wasn't there to see the pain and suffering and how Jesus must have been so scared and nervous about what He was fixing to do. See Jesus was not only God but He was also human so I can only imagine that He had the same human reaction of being so scared and sick and sad about what He knew He was facing. I have longed to have a better grasp of what He went through because I felt like I would be even more thankful for the sacrifice that He made for me. I wanted to understand that so that I could be a better person and a person who truly put God first... above ALL else! I don't think that I could ever fully understand how He felt but I do feel that being so scared of losing my life and being so physically sick over it... I understand as best as I ever will until I get to Heaven! I am just thankful to God for this season of my life because God makes amazing things happen even in the worst situations! God doesn't cause these things to happen but He uses them to bring people to Him!
Thank you God for my life and for this storm that I am going through right now! I have faith that you are going to see me through this and I am going to be closer to You than I have ever been. I have faith that someone... even one person... will seek You through all of this and find a joy, a peace and a happiness that only comes from You. If one person finds their way to you... then it is all worth it!