Wednesday, November 25, 2009

The Latest

I love you all.... do you know that? I really do!

I have a real peace for the first time in this life changing few days! I went for my CT Scan this morning and we called a little while ago for the results. From the tests... it looks as if the cancer has not spread. It seems to be contained at the moment to my cervix. Due to the kind of cancer it is (rare), the surgery for a radical hysterectomy is still on for Monday.

After hearing this news and talking to the wonderful nurse, I can't help but have a peace! I know so many people have been praying for me/us. These are other things that I know......

The 'catch' of this cancer in my body is a total surprise to the oncologist and his staff. Apparently my irregular pap was just slighty irregular. The standard procedure for many gynos would be to say... hey, you guys have a great holiday season and how about you come back in Feb. and we will do another pap. There were no signs on my irregular pap of cancer. If the standard procedure had been done... this would have given my type of cancer plenty of opportunity to grow and spread. Instead my doctor immediately did a biopsy just to be safe! Have I said that I love him? :) I always have but man... I basically feel like he has saved my life or at least... done his part to try to!

My gyno started to refer me to another oncologist but said... hey... you know what.... I am going to send you to Dr. Dudley instead. I know why he had a change of heart.... God wanted me to be with Dr. Dudley. We have heard nothing but great great things about this man! His nurses sing his praises and everyone... everyone we have had contact with the past two days at the hospital have done nothing but sing his praises. Dr. Dudley's nurse told us that it is nothing for him to use his lunch time to go to the chapel and pray for his patient(s) and come back eating a banana that he picked up before starting to work again! I feel strongly that God wants this man to take care of me!

It is amazing that one day after learning of the cancer... I was in the oncologists office making plans and having tests. There was a cancellation yesterday that allowed me to come on in and be seen. The nurse has said several times over the past two days that 'someone' wanted this to go quickly for me! She and I both know who that 'Someone' is! She told Michael today that I had angels watching over me!

I think I already told you but as a favor to Dr. Dudley... the people who ran the tests for me stayed around an hour and a half later to see me. If they hadn't... I would have had to wait until Monday right before surgery to find out if it looks to have spread, etc! In my fragile condition... I don't know how I would have made it until then.

I am not a patient person and my nerves have been so torn up that I throw up and can't sleep! God knew that and I believe that He provided answers and hopefully a permanent solution in an unbelievable speedy fashion.

Knowing all of this.... I can't help but have a peace that I am going to be okay! God is moving in a mighty way to protect me right now! I am so unworthy of His love and grace but I am soooo thankful to have it!

I am also so thankful to have all of you! It is overwhelming to know that sooo many people care about you and love you and pray for you! I will never ever ever be able to express my gratitude appropriately! I just weep because I can just feel it! I can feel the love and the prayers and I am just so blessed!

Please continue to pray for me and for our family! My surgery is Monday and I will be in the hospital for 3 or 4 days and then I will have a 6 week recovery! Hopefully it won't take me that long though to get back in my craft room! :) However.... when i do.... things will be different. I pray that they are different! My life has totally changed forever and I pray that I will come out a better person because of it... a more focused person on the things that really matter and on the only ONE who really matters!

I love you all!

22 comments:

Chase said...

I maybe the first male to write on your blog, but I can swallow my pride. Kelley, you and Michael have been a huge part of my life over the past 11 years. I have read your blog a couple of times over and though I am hurting for you, I am encouraged by your words. I trust in God's hand to see you through this situation. I pray for victory over the cancer and I also pray that your faith will be strengthened and refined. "Jesus does his finest work within the storms of our lives, for it is in storms that he has our kneenest attention." Max Lucado-Fearless

Courtney and I love you, Michael, and Carver.

Courtney Baker said...

We love you! We really do. So glad to hear the great news!

Jane said...

I can't help but cry........you are so WORTHY of Him and His love!!! You have such a kind face....you have such talent....and you're finding out that you are a fighter too! I made a card for you...I posted it on my blog today. God bless you, your family and the doctors and nurses who will care for you....I pray they have the knowledge and care that you need! You will get through the surgery fine!!
God bless!
xo

Espbfdl said...

Thank you, Jesus- for your peace and for the BODY of CHRIST reaching out through prayer (in person or through email/web). Lord, we continue to ask for peace and healing for Kelley and her family. We thank you that they believe in you and lean on you!! Thank you for hearing each prayer- we ask for continued protection on this family. Lord, thank you for your Son...and thank you for Kelley and her love for crafts and people. Oh Lord, we thank you--in Jesus' name- AMEN!!!!

Elise said...

I'm crying, too. Tears of joy, hope and AMAZEMENT.. You are beautiful on SO many levels, Kelley. This is a time that having a blog is so helpful ~ DO NOT WORRY about thanking us individually {can I say that for the group? doh!} Well, you know what I mean. It's fabulous that you can update so many of us through this one source... We'll keep praying and you keep being your beautiful, amazing self.

I love you, Kelley.

Annmaree (EmuUpAGumTree) said...

A great Doc, and someone is truely looking out for you. You are indeed mean't to be here!

best Wishes with it all, I'm sure everything will turn out well!

Carly said...

Thank you for keeping us posted. My thoughts and prayers are with you always. I wish I could give you a big hug right now! Try not to worry to much, and just put your faith in God's hands. I know he will take good care of you on Monday.

Margaret said...

Praise God.....what more can I say. We are here to help when you need us. Our prayers will continue.

Lynnette said...

Praise God for his Grace and Mercy. I am so grateful for you and that you have some peace. God's providence is so amazing, and I find it so wonderful that you recognize His work in your life.

God uses the trials in our lives to draw us closer to Him. I always remember Romans 8:28
"And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose."

Just know you are being lifted up in prayer. I love you girl!

Jessica said...

PTL!!!! Oh Kelley, so happy to hear the news. God is awesome and he will continue to cary you through all this. I sense a great story and testimony of his grace and love coming your way. Glory to God!!!
Love you girl ;)

A blessed day of Gratitude to you and loved ones.

~amy~ said...

Oh thank goodness kelley....thanks for keeping us in the loop my dear!! You are in my thoughts sista...

Vanessa said...

I am soo relieved!!! You are so sweet and lovely, I am thinking about you all the time! Love you!

Hugs,
Vanessa

jen said...

You are in my prayers....

Christina Smith said...

I have been thinking about you so much and praying for you! I will continue to pray! Have a blessed Thanksgiving and keep your eyes on the Lord! He is helping you through this! He has your hand in His!

Winter said...

Praise God! I am so happy to hear that wonderful news! I will continue to pray for you and the surgery! Do you know the time of your surgery yet? If you could, let us know and maybe we could all start praying at the time you go into surgery, since we all can't be there with you! Have a very Blessed Thanksgiving! Love ya! :)

Laura O'Donnell said...

Praying for you, Kelley

chelsea said...

I have always said that you are my favorite cousin! That has never changed! I feel that this life changing experience could not happen to a stronger person though. There are no ifs ands or buts, YOU WILL BE FINE! We all trust that the Lord is taking personal care of you right now. I am so relieved that it has not spread and I am sure that gives you a sense of calmness in such a troubling time. I wish I was getting to love on you today at our thanksgiving dinner, but I will be there in spirit and love. Please call me anytime if you want to talk or anything. I miss and love you so much and am trusting that God has his purpose that will just make our family stronger because of this. We are praying day and night for you and your recovery and for your boys! We love you always.

Chelsea and Jimmy York

Laurel said...

Thinking about and praying for you Kelley.

Randee E said...

Oh sweet Kelly, I am just now getting caught up and can only imagine what these past few days have been like for you. I am praying and will continue to do so for your complete recovery. My first reaction was anger that something like this could happen to someone so thoughtful, loving, joyful and kind. Keep your positive attitude that cheer so many of us up on a daily basis :0) I truly believe that a positive attitude will help lead to a positive outcome. Stay strong for Carver, your family and especially yourself. Your faith is helping you do that for sure! I am thankful for many things today and one of them is you! Just wanted to let you know you are on my mind in my heart and in my prayers.

Nancy L. said...

Praying for you and your family, Kelley! God will give you the strength to get over this!

~kelly marie~ said...

Thank God! Sending you lots of love and hugs.

Anonymous said...

and try to imagine your husband leaving you in the midst of this.... many women go through so much more....

SEVERAL years back....
I had one friend that had 5 children
SHE DIED
the next friend had 5 children
2 children died
and I
did not get 5 children...

MY heart died!
my marriage died!

and life goes on....

MY prayers are with you and know that GOD is GOD!
THIS LIFE.... sucks!